Insight

Anonymous said...
THIS IS COMMENT IS TO ECHO:

I read your blog regularly, but I can't comment, but I am here on Storm's bcuz your last post I could really identify with, well sorta, not over a guy, but new friends. 2 yrs ago when me and my friends started hs I started to get involved in other extra-curriculars they didn't, so I had NEW friends too, but my older friends got jealous, started ragging on my new friends, saying I was stuck up for hanging with them, that I was being selfish for not caring about them anymore... eventually I lost most of those older friends, because I didn't stop my extra-curriculars or being friends with whoever I wanted to be friends with, it kinda made that whole year drag on forever and not in a good way, and I don't think they realized how much it hurt me, because they were convinced I didn't care. So I kinda understand and I really feel for you, I'd imagine if it was over a man I loved (and not NEW friends)it would've been worse, you shouldn't try to keep everyone else happy, because it'll NEVER happen, just worry about what makes YOU happy, idk if that sounds selfish, but you know what? it kinda sounds like no one's really happy right now, maybe it should at least be you. hope you can work everything out.

and I hope you don't mind, I know your blog's for team members only, but I like it, I'll stop reading it if you ask me to, I won't be offended or anything.

Cruz


Hi Cruz

Thanks for commenting. It's kind of a relief to hear that someone out there can identify with me. People just don't seem to understand that I do care about the things that they think I don't care about (if that makes sense), I just don't want to give up the things that are important to me. That's how I lost all my friends a few years ago and that's how I am losing them now. I try hard to make other people happy, but I can't give away everything just to be liked.

After being holed up in my little hideout for two years, keeping to myself, I like being more involved. And in being more involved I made new friends...and suddenly the few old ones that I had before seemed to be competeing for my time and when I can't give it to them they think that I am changed, that I am ignoring them, that I am forgetting them, that I am replacing them...when I really honestly am not...I'm just busy.

"because I didn't stop my extra-curriculars or being friends with whoever I wanted to be friends with, it kinda made that whole year drag on forever and not in a good way, and I don't think they realized how much it hurt me, because they were convinced I didn't care" I totally relate to that (obviously)

Actually my blog is for everyone...I just made it so that the posts don't always appear on the first page. Go to my history. I don't mind you reading it.

And thank you for commenting. You don't know what that meant to me.

Echo