Ranting Raving And other fun stuff (no really it's not that bad...)

Okay...

I am going to smile...and breathe. And attempt to calm myslf down.
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Ah...okay

ANYWAY.

Long story short:

I spent hours outside waiting to get into Hot Topic
I got my ticket
I went to school
Couldn't donate blood because I was too cold.
Was about to die later...was too tired
Went back to mall and got in line
Started getting a fever
Finally met Robert Pattinson
Nearly fainted (not because I met him...because I was exhausted)
Got home

Next day

I don't really remember...
Lilac got in trouble
Radar ticked Tilla off
I was kinda out of it and a little snappy
Went to the counselor's/office during tenth...
Went home
Fell asleep

Today

Woke up
Read newspapers that have been sitting in my room for weeks
Wandered aimlessly
J'ai mal a la tete (I have a headache)
blogging
need to finish both articles for the newspaper for tomorrow
watching Something About Mary

Notes:

I am sick of repeating myself
I don't really care anymore
I feel ready to bail out
People can be so freaking selfish
People don't care to listen to me
That's their loss not mine
Nothing is going to pull me back to where I was before
I am not going to be dragged back down
I refuse to be anything but happy
If you have a problem with it then SCREW YOU
I hate fun squashers
People need to realize the appropriote time to say something and when to shut up
People need to stop being freaking hypocrites

What I have learned:

Never wait outside a mall in the freezing cold for 12 hours again(even if it was worth it in the long run)

It is weird to see 40-60 year olds in line to see a 22 year old and telling him he is there role model and they want to have his kids...slightly awkward

you learn interesting facts all the time...like:

People who were bullied when they were younger actually end up bullying someone as they get older although they fail to realize that they are doing it because they can't see past themselves. (I am not one of these people)

People who were controlled when they were younger tend to want more control for themselves and get more stubborn as they get older. They stop taking shit from people. I (un)fortunately can be like this...

No matter how hard one tries something things just aren't going to work themselves out because people can be so darn stubborn and selfish and fail to realize the needs of others...



The Lyrics that I Live by at this point:

"Hey, Hey"

Some people you can never please
You might as well just let them be
They mock everything not their own
From their imaginary throne
But I won't bow down,
even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy

So hey hey, this song is for us
So put your hands in the air
if you're crazy like us
Hey hey
Hey hey, that's freedom you hear
Comin' right to your ear,
that's the sound from our bus
Hey hey

Why try to be like someone else
When you can only be yourself?
No one can sing the song you do
Be true, be legendary you
So I won't sell out,
even if the whole world thinks I'm crazy

Why kiss the feet of the people who kick you
When you can be anything that you want to?



Yes...that is a good point. I am tired of being pushed around and if everything is going to blow up in my face then by all means let it. I can take it. I can handle anything. I am actually at a great point in my teen age years which is saying something seeing as I have only three years to go (not even). So THERE.

I will live my life the way that I want
I won't be returning to the crappy points of my life.

Thank you

I would like to take this moment and thank everyone who as stood by me through the insanity.
If you can stand me when I go nuts then you are true friend. Thanks for taking me as I am.

For those of you who can't. ESHEW!

I love Sonar!!<3<3<3

Echo Eleeya Eensey